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Blessed Samhain

For Pagans the 31st October is the festival of Samhain.  It is the last day of Celtic year, the end of summer as Celts only had three seasons.  It is the day when the veil between the worlds is at its thinnest, a day to honour your ancestors, talk to and honour the spirits of those you have lost,  to consider the year gone by and make plans for the new.

Our Samhain celebrations are fairly low key.  Once the last of the trick or treaters have visited, we light candles and talk about friends and family who have gone to the summerlands.  I lay a place at the dinner table for my father who died almost 14 years ago.  We also do a blessing list every year.  To say thank you to the people who’ve been influential in our life for that year and bless them in the year to come.  It begins by opening the list we did the previous year, and then we write a new list which is sealed and not opened until the following Samhain.

However, you celebrate, have a blessed Samhain.

New beginnings

It’s been an interesting year, and I seem to be coming out of a slew of negative energy, with me, my family and friends being ill, in some cases life threateningly, but we all survived.  I have a history of autoimmune disease and when I started feeling ill early in the year then started having problems walking I think we all thought that perhaps I had a new one.  It turned out to be a simple vitamin D deficiency (probably linked to my thyroid problems).  Simple I say, and only noticeably symptomatic for a few months, but since I’ve been taking the tablets, I’ve noticed symptoms I’ve had for years that were put down to my thyroid or my age disappearing.

I’ve been calling myself a Pagan for about 18 years as people need labels to categorise you but it’s a bit more complex than that.  I’ve always been interested in spirituality and religion, but about 18 years ago it sought me out.  I’ve been called a catalyst, a dwell point and a few less complementary things over the years, the Powers That Be seem to like using me to effect change, I’ve been a mirror for some people, although usually a passive action on my part. Perhaps this had been happening for longer, but this was when I noticed it.

Of course sometimes I happen to be on the receiving end.  I used to write, a lot. Journals, letters, poetry, stories but about 15 years ago I met a writer at a sci fi convention, who made me question why I did, possibly because he was the biggest knob head I’ve ever met, he was completely self obsessed and full of his own self importance. I stopped writing.

I started my business a few years ago to express my creativity, but somewhere along the line, I lost my passion and it became about creating things for people that I thought would sell.  I will still keep producing the “ephemera” as I think it still has a function and I just love the word.

Just as 15 years ago I had a profound but negative experience, I’ve recently had the complete opposite, I met an artist who inspired me, who held up a mirror and I’ve had a long hard look at myself and wondered how I ended up here. As much as I enjoy the art I create on the computer I feel disconnected from it. I don’t draw anymore, I don’t paint any more, I don’t write any more. I want to change that, I want to get out in the world and meet people and do things. I want to write, I want to paint, to create again. So I’d like to thank him, he may not be aware of the effect he had on me, he was after all just a mirror, but I’m thankful anyway,  so thank you my friend, it was an act of Human Kindness,  I hope the gift I gave you had value to you and I hope we meet again.  You’ve helped me get my mojo back.

Change can be scary, because we may feel safe where we are, we know what to expect and we think we know what’s coming.  When you open your heart and mind to change it makes the future less predictable.

We are influenced by the people we meet and the connections we make, so be nice to people, be aware of the effect your energy has on people.

I have signed up for a watercolour class – I can paint – but I thought it would be interesting to do it with a group.  I’ll let you know how I get on.

I have some ideas for mixed media images, words, painting and graphic art combined, I have a project I’m going to try and start this week so I will post on how I’m getting on.